Being Responsible....

Life's an ocean of events, good and bad. After all these years, I've learnt the hard way that we and we alone are responsible for whatever had happened to us in the past, and whatever is happening to us right now.
Although I read this in a book (yes, books are the fuel for mind, period.), I was a bit sceptic about this statement; how come we alone are responsible? Isn't the environment we live in plays a major role in what happens to us? If someone does something bad to us, how is it possible that it is because of us. But truly speaking, that's where I found the difference between actions and events.
Events happen in our life all our time, but it is upto us what action we take to respond.

Here I am, happily married to Rupal, my beautiful wife. Its been 8 months since we got married. But fate had different plans for us. After 10 days of marriage, I left for Australia, hoping to see her with me soon enough. But something or the other happened, and still I've no idea when she will join me. We regularly talk to each other and have a lot of love and respect, but its like "When we're together I feel so UNVINCIBLE.....".

Now, an average person will think, who's responsible for the suffering for both? Is it me, the circumstances or just luck? This question remained unanswered for me for a long time, and when I found it, it was not that exciting......it was me, me all the way!!!

I had a choice.....a choice to postpone my return ticket to Australia to spend some more time with my wife. I had a choice to hit it hard and get a stable job so that I can call my wife on a visitor visa to stay with me for a while. I had a choice, whether to wind up everything in Australia and return to India for good. I had a choice, not to create additional expenses and save money to visit India once more. But what did I do?

I chose to return to Australia as per my original plan, I chose to rely on my recruiter to get me new contract jobs, I chose to become a citizen of Australia and deliberately created more expenses for myself, I chose to get a house on my own rather than saving for India travel. A foolish decision, many would say...

When I found the answer of the riddle, I felt responsible for my actions and started towards making it right. Later I realised, all this suffering was for our own good. It not only increased the love, but the foundation of trust has become so strong that nothing can shake it. I've realised that how painful it is to live apart, and that will motivate me to do my best and give my best to my better half, coz she is truly BETTER than me!!

I try to read, I go to work, I'm laughing with my friends..
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking,
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they're?
The days we had, the songs we sang together..
and Oh my love, I'm holding on forever,
reaching for the love that seems so far...
So I say a little prayer, and hope my dreams will take me there,
where the skies are blue, to see you once again, my love...
Over seas from coast to coast, to find the place I love the most,
where the fields are green, to see you once again...my love!!
To hold you in my arms
to promise you my love
to tell you from my heart
you're all I'm thinkin of